Sunday, August 31, 2008

My surgery

I talked to Dr. Hanley on Friday. I asked him if I could recover on the adult/Stanford side if there were no beds for me in the CVICU. He thought about it, and said yes. He would prefer me to recover on the children's side because of my heart condition, but he will also feel comfortable w/ the adult side if we had to. He said my chances of having surgery rescheduled are very slim. That was nice. It also makes me realize that it's probably going to happen this Friday, and I am starting to get a little nervous now. I also got sad today. I'm wearing a tank top, and kinda low cut. I just realized that after my surgery, I will never look the same. I know, I know, I have to get this done, and beauty is from the inside, but it will be different. My old scars are on my left side, so only a bathing suit will show those. I've always been so grateful for not having scars in the front. Oh well, whatever! Just venting. My mom will be giving Andrea, from my support group updates and pictures. Andrea has offered to update my blog while I'm in the hospital. That's nice of her. My mom doesn't know anything about blogs.

Baby Ross is doing great. He doesn't appear to be sick. =)

That's it for now!

Kira

7 comments:

Valerie said...

You will be beautiful even after surgery, scar and all!

Our Family said...

Yikes, I can't believe it's already time for your surgery. Your scar will make you even cooler!

Dina said...

Kira
We met at a heart support group when you were still pregnant. I have been quietly following Ross' progress. I just wanted you to know that I will be thinking about you this week, especially on the day of your surgery, and hope that all goes smoothly.

Also - a good friend of mine had a similar surgery when she was 20 and you can hardly see the scar on her chest and she wears bikinis and low tank tops all the time:)

Dina

Anonymous said...

I'll be praying for you! ...and your warm personality and sweet smile will overshadow any scars!!

~Anissa

Anonymous said...

Kira, We met at the last support group. I will be praying for you and baby Ross and your husband.I am So sorry you are going through this. I remember being nearly in tears one day when my Daniel was a toddler because I couldn't ever take him to a "McDonald's Playland". My friend thought it was silly condering what I had-a child who had sailed thru a heart transplant. But she'll never get it. She has 2 healthy children. I just felt robbed of so many things, big and small. So I GET your being bummed about your scar. One in the family is enough. It will be a GREAT conversation starter!(just kidding) It will fade fast. And you are so beautiful anyway.

Amber said...

Kira,
I'll start praying right now for your anxiety and for smooth sailing through surgery and recovery. You're sweet spirit will get you through anything...and you'll have "one up" on the rest of us heart moms because you have actual experiences to relate with Ross to. And a BIG thank you to your Mom and Andrea for keeping us updated!

Allison said...

I have to agree with what has already been said. It won't take away from your beauty. But I think I'd feel the same way as you. Hang in there...there are lots of us praying for you!